Hello subjects and others, I hope you all are doing well and that you had a nice Christmas, a good ending of the year and a wonderful start of 2019.
I had a rough ending and I had to take some Me time, it just became too much for Me when I had to put My cat down. It got to Me hard, She had been with Me for 9 years.
But now I am making My way back, some parts have been sorted out in My life. I will start working in April at My old job so there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I am still open for some online humiliation/ Foot fetish sessions, online cuckolding and chastity and JOI. Just send Me an email at servingLadyBlaze@gmail.com
I also have a few dates lined up in the coming weeks and I am looking forward to that. The one who was going to fly here in January is canceled due to bad texting behaviors.
I met a new sub online, that I took under consideration. He is a bit on the younger side but he is showing some good manners that would make some of you feel ashamed. We will see where it leads to. I am also getting My Patreon up and running to promote My paintings.
Anywho I am still not back in writing mood so if you have any things you want Me to write about then please let Me know in the comments.
Take care and stay obedient.
~ Lady Blaze 💋
Tuesday, January 8, 2019
Thursday, December 27, 2018
Human investments
When you have a problem you decide how to handle it and how to look at it. And I decided to use it to explain something that might be an eye-opener to some of you.
As a Professional Dog trainer I have learned to study behaviors and patterns and in today's society, we have a tendency to not appreciate the things that are given to us freely or easily. This is the mentality of humans. It is really not nice but this is how it is.
It becomes pretty clear if we take a look at the shelters and rehoming ads of pets today. It is most of the time the cheap mix breeds that are up for adoption and sent to the shelters, dumped in the woods or euthanized when they are ill instead of receiving medical treatment etc.
Pedigree dogs and cats hold a higher value and people seem to take care of them much more, they get medical treatments for them, they go to doggy school, they take out insurance for them and they are rarely sent to the shelters. Why is that? Because they are much more expensive to purchase and people have INVESTED more money into the pedigree pet so it has a higher value.
It is the same with horses, you can get a cheap mix breed horse that has been rehomed 15 times and finally it ends up as a hamburger on your table because they don't want to spend money on medical bills or when they are tired of caring for it. How often do you think that happens to a horse that costs 50.000 Euros to purchase? Do you think they buy the cheap saddle for that horse or a more expensive one? Of course the more expensive one.
Heck even lock at the foster/daycare today, so many kids in foster/daycare today are treated so much worse than the carers own kids, why? They haven't invested emotions, time and money in the child, they didn't carry it for 9 months and they didn't stay up at night to nurse it when it was ill.
The same goes for us Women, a basic chick who is paying for her man to sit home all day and bends over backward for him, she gets cheated on, yelled at, she gets used and abused, she is nothing more than a free pussy and he will leave her and her wet behind when he comes across something more valuable. This is why I cut Mr Z off immediately when he stopped investing in Me. I refuse to be that basic woman.
But men who INVEST his time and money in his woman tends treats Her better. A Woman who is high maintenance seldom gets divorced or cheated on. Why? Because She is VALUABLE and he knows it will cost him so much more if he loses Her. And a smart Woman returns the favor by VALUING his efforts. They are both INVESTING in each other. This is what most people miss when it comes to relationships. You might read My posts here about a generous sub, about how I want to be cared for. There are a reason and logic behind everything I do. And every time I step away from it and lower My standards to fit in the shit hits the fan. This is why I don't INVEST My time and energy in online chat or games if the sub haven't INVESTED in Me. It is never going to happen.
When you take ownership of a man's cock and orgasms, magical things happen to his behavior. That's why I want to have a man in chastity. Besides, we all know that you are not capable to control that thing anyway. And when you take a mans money in combination with his orgasms, then you get his undivided attention and emotional investment and that is when he gets to feel the reward of all of his efforts.
And until this day, the most valuable gift I have ever received was an old Braun electric toothbrush, not because it was very expensive at the time, but because he took every last penny he had, he even walked to the store to buy it because if he took the bus he wouldn't be able to buy it for My birthday. That was more than 17 years ago. So it isn't about the amount that was spent, it is about the effort, the sacrifice and investment.
~ Lady Blaze 💋
As a Professional Dog trainer I have learned to study behaviors and patterns and in today's society, we have a tendency to not appreciate the things that are given to us freely or easily. This is the mentality of humans. It is really not nice but this is how it is.
It becomes pretty clear if we take a look at the shelters and rehoming ads of pets today. It is most of the time the cheap mix breeds that are up for adoption and sent to the shelters, dumped in the woods or euthanized when they are ill instead of receiving medical treatment etc.
Pedigree dogs and cats hold a higher value and people seem to take care of them much more, they get medical treatments for them, they go to doggy school, they take out insurance for them and they are rarely sent to the shelters. Why is that? Because they are much more expensive to purchase and people have INVESTED more money into the pedigree pet so it has a higher value.
It is the same with horses, you can get a cheap mix breed horse that has been rehomed 15 times and finally it ends up as a hamburger on your table because they don't want to spend money on medical bills or when they are tired of caring for it. How often do you think that happens to a horse that costs 50.000 Euros to purchase? Do you think they buy the cheap saddle for that horse or a more expensive one? Of course the more expensive one.
Heck even lock at the foster/daycare today, so many kids in foster/daycare today are treated so much worse than the carers own kids, why? They haven't invested emotions, time and money in the child, they didn't carry it for 9 months and they didn't stay up at night to nurse it when it was ill.
The same goes for us Women, a basic chick who is paying for her man to sit home all day and bends over backward for him, she gets cheated on, yelled at, she gets used and abused, she is nothing more than a free pussy and he will leave her and her wet behind when he comes across something more valuable. This is why I cut Mr Z off immediately when he stopped investing in Me. I refuse to be that basic woman.
But men who INVEST his time and money in his woman tends treats Her better. A Woman who is high maintenance seldom gets divorced or cheated on. Why? Because She is VALUABLE and he knows it will cost him so much more if he loses Her. And a smart Woman returns the favor by VALUING his efforts. They are both INVESTING in each other. This is what most people miss when it comes to relationships. You might read My posts here about a generous sub, about how I want to be cared for. There are a reason and logic behind everything I do. And every time I step away from it and lower My standards to fit in the shit hits the fan. This is why I don't INVEST My time and energy in online chat or games if the sub haven't INVESTED in Me. It is never going to happen.
When you take ownership of a man's cock and orgasms, magical things happen to his behavior. That's why I want to have a man in chastity. Besides, we all know that you are not capable to control that thing anyway. And when you take a mans money in combination with his orgasms, then you get his undivided attention and emotional investment and that is when he gets to feel the reward of all of his efforts.
And until this day, the most valuable gift I have ever received was an old Braun electric toothbrush, not because it was very expensive at the time, but because he took every last penny he had, he even walked to the store to buy it because if he took the bus he wouldn't be able to buy it for My birthday. That was more than 17 years ago. So it isn't about the amount that was spent, it is about the effort, the sacrifice and investment.
~ Lady Blaze 💋
Tuesday, December 25, 2018
Mr Z is such a gentleman..
Mr Z was just here and it ended with Me slamming the door in his face after calling him a son of a bitch. I was fuming and I am still upset. I hope I don't run into him and that he keeps his mouth shut if I do.
Mr Z has kittens that I watched for him, for free, both when he left for Ankara and when he urgently left because his friend was ill. One of them destroyed My earphones and when I told him about it he said don't worry, he would buy new ones for Me. To Me it is kind of important because I need them to sleep and you all know My current financial situation.
Today when I wrote to him reminding him about it, he came around here and was angry and demanded money for the rainboots he bought for Me a few months back (I thought it was as a gift) and that I return the money he sent me when he was away. I never asked him to send Me any money or to buy the boots but it all equals $40 in total. He spent so much time here, behaved like My boyfriend, took up My time, drank My wine, ate My food and now he is asking Me for $40?! What am I missing here? Does this mean that I should charge him for the unsatisfying sex we had and the cat sitting I did for free? I'm just asking..
Mr Z has kittens that I watched for him, for free, both when he left for Ankara and when he urgently left because his friend was ill. One of them destroyed My earphones and when I told him about it he said don't worry, he would buy new ones for Me. To Me it is kind of important because I need them to sleep and you all know My current financial situation.
Today when I wrote to him reminding him about it, he came around here and was angry and demanded money for the rainboots he bought for Me a few months back (I thought it was as a gift) and that I return the money he sent me when he was away. I never asked him to send Me any money or to buy the boots but it all equals $40 in total. He spent so much time here, behaved like My boyfriend, took up My time, drank My wine, ate My food and now he is asking Me for $40?! What am I missing here? Does this mean that I should charge him for the unsatisfying sex we had and the cat sitting I did for free? I'm just asking..
It is sad when you genuinely liked someone and they just use people. I missed him so much when he was away in Ankara and I was longing for him to come back but when I realized that his words were all empty and he left Me in a really difficult predicament then I lost all feelings. It became even worse when he said some really insulting things to Me about who I should date. I totally flatlined, and now when I look at him I just feel disgusted. I can't be with a man I can't trust, who doesn't have My back and doesn't care for Me, I just can't.
I want a genuine, loving D/s relationship with My main partner and possibly lovers. It goes against all of My personal beliefs to use people, I cannot be with a person just because of his money. I would feel sick to My stomach. I still believe in love, but I am really disappointed in so-called men. This is why I want a generous and genuinely submissive man. I am so done with the vanilla men that you wouldn't believe it!
I need to meditate and perhaps use Neville Goddards revision technique and revise the situation. I definitely didn't need this extra drama in My life. Oh, I really hope My visitors will come in January, I need something positive to look forward to.
~ Lady Blaze 💋
I want a genuine, loving D/s relationship with My main partner and possibly lovers. It goes against all of My personal beliefs to use people, I cannot be with a person just because of his money. I would feel sick to My stomach. I still believe in love, but I am really disappointed in so-called men. This is why I want a generous and genuinely submissive man. I am so done with the vanilla men that you wouldn't believe it!
I need to meditate and perhaps use Neville Goddards revision technique and revise the situation. I definitely didn't need this extra drama in My life. Oh, I really hope My visitors will come in January, I need something positive to look forward to.
~ Lady Blaze 💋
The fuckery (Personal Rant about vanilla life)
It then went on to have a conversation with an old colleague who insisted on Me coming to Monte Negro for work. I explained that I don't want to because of health reasons My suspected PTSD is acting up and I don't want to leave My ill furlings. And again, another Turk who wouldn't respect My no.
Then I posted a personal ad in a group on FL and one of the subs threw a temper tantrum on there as well because of My ad.. From that moment, the day just continued to be more gloomy, My dog has been ill all day and it was just a really shitty day.
I normally don't have a problem being alone on Christmas but this year it is extra tough. I'm tired, and I feel alone, I need some serious TLC. I realized that when I was doing the dishes, I started crying. I feel lonely, forgotten and unloved. I'm tired of feeling like Atlas, carrying the world on My shoulders. My 2 primary love languages are when people give Me gifts and when they do something for Me, that's why I liked Mr Z. He took care of the cleaning for Me and it meant so much to come into a clean kitchen and bathroom, not having to clean the litterboxes or taking out the garbage etc. It helped Me think better and to be more creative. Now it feels like I either clean or paint or I work. I cannot do all, I cannot cope. I really need to paint, painting makes Me feel so much better and of course My walks. It is impossible to feel bad on the beach.
So I have made Myself a promise, I will not get involved with another man on a personal level unless he is able to provide for Me so I can focus on being the best Woman and leader for him and give him the very best of Me. I just want him to make My life easier so I can focus on love, sex and being happy. I need a fucking break, I have been fighting non-stop since 2009. I wish I could get at least a year off with 1200 euros every month to just destress. Knowing Me I will most likely come up with some project before the year is over but it would be so nice to be cared for and be able to breathe.
To feel loved and supported. Something seriously needs to change.
Well at least My dog is feeling better, I had some Swedish original gingerbread, marzipan, I had some hot spiced wine, and a real traditional Swedish dinner, not Christmas dinner but it was ok. I talked with 2 very dear friends from Sweden who made me feel a bit better. Hopefully, I will have some visitors coming in January that might lead to something.
I genuinely wish you all a much better Christmas than I had. If you have a relative living abroad/far away, reach out to them, it means so much!
Stay blessed.
~ Lady Blaze 💋
Sunday, December 23, 2018
God Yule and Merry Christmas!
My celebration is not different from any other days except that I eat better, doesn't feel guilty for binge-watching something on Netflix and I talk a lot with a really good friend from Sweden who also celebrates alone.
When I was looking for some nice pictures I noticed something and it was that there wasn't really any nice, beautiful and classy Femdom pictures like the ones below. So I have decided that when I get an IRL sub we will take beautiful pictures because there is definitely a need for that.
By the way, I opened an account on bdsmlr.com and you can find Me here: https://ladyblaze.bdsmlr.com
Until next time, Merry Christmas!
~ Lady Blaze 💋
Saturday, December 22, 2018
Day dreaming and a book recommendation
Hello subs, wimps and others, I hope you are all doing well and that you have behaved well so you will get a gift in your stocking and under the tree.
I must have been a very bad Queen because there is absolutely nothing under the tree this year. My "extra" family normally sends a care package but not this year.
I had another lovely walk down by the beach today and I sat down with My dog and daydreamed for a bit. I was thinking about how nice it could be to have a small secluded B&B here in the Marmaris area, totally run by subs. Like a membership hotel, where munches could be held, Dommes could come with their pets and just enjoy themselves. There is a place called the Address in Selimiye, that has the perfect location, it is My dream home but I am not sure how suitable it is for a B&B. the property is gated to ensure privacy and I would have 2-3 rottweilers guarding the premises. My ex has a small boutique hotel next to it, I could always rent that from him perhaps.. It would definitely make more profit if I did! And it has a larger capacity and it has some privacy. Hmm maybe I could find some submissive and kinky investors, that would be a perfect solution. I need to think more about this. The best thing would be a castle or a mansion but they don't have many of those here and it might a little bit much to start off with.
All rooms would be themed. of course. Most do color themed rooms but I think I would take another approach. There would definitely be a room called La Bastille with a small Madame Guillotine for CBT. Don't worry, not to cut off your most precious little part but to hurt it a bit. Instead of a blade, there could be weights.. I would have so much fun with that. And no dungeon is complete without the Iron Maiden. Yes, I do like old school torture devices because they are so evil.
A slave room with cages and hooks in the wall for the subs to be chained to.
What do you guys think, would you suggest a place like that for your Domme as a holiday location?
By the way, for all of you cuckolds out there. I had a nice date today with a vanilla captain, we will see where it might lead to. He is actually younger than Me but that might be exactly what I need. I have a ferocious appetite these days. ;)
Now it is time to relax with a good book. Lyon on a leash. It is a softcore book about a Domme who is pretty similar to Me, that's why I like it. There are not any real scenes described in the book but I like the dominance and submission that it is about and the everyday dynamic between them. Marcus is like the kind of sub I would be attracted to. I like it but I don't know if you men would like it, but if you are more into D/s I am sure you can relate. If you read it please let Me know what you think in the comments.
If you buy the book via this link you will be supporting Me ;)
Stay obedient!
~ Lady Blaze 💋
I must have been a very bad Queen because there is absolutely nothing under the tree this year. My "extra" family normally sends a care package but not this year.
I had another lovely walk down by the beach today and I sat down with My dog and daydreamed for a bit. I was thinking about how nice it could be to have a small secluded B&B here in the Marmaris area, totally run by subs. Like a membership hotel, where munches could be held, Dommes could come with their pets and just enjoy themselves. There is a place called the Address in Selimiye, that has the perfect location, it is My dream home but I am not sure how suitable it is for a B&B. the property is gated to ensure privacy and I would have 2-3 rottweilers guarding the premises. My ex has a small boutique hotel next to it, I could always rent that from him perhaps.. It would definitely make more profit if I did! And it has a larger capacity and it has some privacy. Hmm maybe I could find some submissive and kinky investors, that would be a perfect solution. I need to think more about this. The best thing would be a castle or a mansion but they don't have many of those here and it might a little bit much to start off with.
All rooms would be themed. of course. Most do color themed rooms but I think I would take another approach. There would definitely be a room called La Bastille with a small Madame Guillotine for CBT. Don't worry, not to cut off your most precious little part but to hurt it a bit. Instead of a blade, there could be weights.. I would have so much fun with that. And no dungeon is complete without the Iron Maiden. Yes, I do like old school torture devices because they are so evil.
A slave room with cages and hooks in the wall for the subs to be chained to.
What do you guys think, would you suggest a place like that for your Domme as a holiday location?
By the way, for all of you cuckolds out there. I had a nice date today with a vanilla captain, we will see where it might lead to. He is actually younger than Me but that might be exactly what I need. I have a ferocious appetite these days. ;)
Now it is time to relax with a good book. Lyon on a leash. It is a softcore book about a Domme who is pretty similar to Me, that's why I like it. There are not any real scenes described in the book but I like the dominance and submission that it is about and the everyday dynamic between them. Marcus is like the kind of sub I would be attracted to. I like it but I don't know if you men would like it, but if you are more into D/s I am sure you can relate. If you read it please let Me know what you think in the comments.
If you buy the book via this link you will be supporting Me ;)
~ Lady Blaze 💋
Monday, December 17, 2018
My wishlist
Hello,
I feel really great today, took the dogs for a long walk along the beach and it was a fabulous scenery. I will practice My painting until I can capture some of its beauty. I just love the beach, the sea, and the air. It gives Me the perfect start of My day.
So some of you remember that I am Swedish so that means that I am celebrating Christmas not just one day but we start the 23rd and celebrates until the 26th and we open our gifts on the 24th.
I am not a fan of big parties, I actually prefer to be home and just enjoy the peace and quiet. But I do however absolutely love to be pampered, eat and drink well and to receive gifts so I made a Christmas wishlist for you guys so you can contribute to making My holiday more relaxed.
Lingerie
(In Turkey all the women wear new red lingerie on New Year's Eve)
Helly Hansen jacket
Box Braids at the salon
Nice wine and champagne for New Years Eve
Massage
Whips, riding crop, tawse, and other BDSM equipment
(all of mine are packed up and stored away in Sweden.)
Domain and hosting for this blog
Kindle Paperwhite
Rowing Machine
A smart TV
Marisa Peer Hypnotherapist course
And of course as always money or Amazon Giftcards (US) so I can buy what I want.
I have decided to make a few changes to My life and some of them are to become more healthy so next year I will start dancing again. I love to dance and especially belly dancing since it is so sensual. It is actually the reason for how I ended up in Turkey. I also decided to change My appearance so I want to have box braids again since it always looks good and it is so easy to maintain. I have to look good when I am out walking the dogs, you never know when I will bump into a nice Alpha lover.. ;) And it will really catch their attention since I would be the only one here who has box braids. I feel that it is time to get back out there and find an Alpha man who can do with Me what you boys can't! *giggles* Oh how I wish I could hold the keys to your chastity devices and just tease the hell out of you. Imagine the rush to be in another country and your key is in Turkey. Now that would be like playing in Champions League. I doubt any of you would be able to do it. ;)
And since you are not here to give Me a massage the least you can do is to give Me a professional massage.
I also want to build up My BDSM toybox again especially since I am planning on being more active in the scene here in Turkey and some of you will actually get the opportunity to come and serve Me in real life. I am playing with the idea of offering a slave room for subs who travels out here on holiday. What do you think, would you like to have a holiday where you serve a Domme, be her domestic little house slave and sleep on a mattress on the floor? Being served porridge and water for a week? Would you like that? If nothing else you would lose some weight..
Another thing I decided to change is to start reading again. I have a very old Kindle without a touch screen and it is driving Me crazy so I want a newer one, paperwhite. I currently don't have a TV but I do enjoy watching the occasional film or documentary on Netflix and YouTube so it would be nice to have one.
Well I think it is it for now.
As always you can reach Me on servingLadyBlaze@gmail.com
Stay obedient,
~ Lady Blaze 💋
I feel really great today, took the dogs for a long walk along the beach and it was a fabulous scenery. I will practice My painting until I can capture some of its beauty. I just love the beach, the sea, and the air. It gives Me the perfect start of My day.
So some of you remember that I am Swedish so that means that I am celebrating Christmas not just one day but we start the 23rd and celebrates until the 26th and we open our gifts on the 24th.
I am not a fan of big parties, I actually prefer to be home and just enjoy the peace and quiet. But I do however absolutely love to be pampered, eat and drink well and to receive gifts so I made a Christmas wishlist for you guys so you can contribute to making My holiday more relaxed.
Lingerie
(In Turkey all the women wear new red lingerie on New Year's Eve)
Helly Hansen jacket
Box Braids at the salon
Nice wine and champagne for New Years Eve
Massage
Whips, riding crop, tawse, and other BDSM equipment
(all of mine are packed up and stored away in Sweden.)
Domain and hosting for this blog
Kindle Paperwhite
Rowing Machine
A smart TV
Marisa Peer Hypnotherapist course
And of course as always money or Amazon Giftcards (US) so I can buy what I want.
I have decided to make a few changes to My life and some of them are to become more healthy so next year I will start dancing again. I love to dance and especially belly dancing since it is so sensual. It is actually the reason for how I ended up in Turkey. I also decided to change My appearance so I want to have box braids again since it always looks good and it is so easy to maintain. I have to look good when I am out walking the dogs, you never know when I will bump into a nice Alpha lover.. ;) And it will really catch their attention since I would be the only one here who has box braids. I feel that it is time to get back out there and find an Alpha man who can do with Me what you boys can't! *giggles* Oh how I wish I could hold the keys to your chastity devices and just tease the hell out of you. Imagine the rush to be in another country and your key is in Turkey. Now that would be like playing in Champions League. I doubt any of you would be able to do it. ;)
And since you are not here to give Me a massage the least you can do is to give Me a professional massage.
I also want to build up My BDSM toybox again especially since I am planning on being more active in the scene here in Turkey and some of you will actually get the opportunity to come and serve Me in real life. I am playing with the idea of offering a slave room for subs who travels out here on holiday. What do you think, would you like to have a holiday where you serve a Domme, be her domestic little house slave and sleep on a mattress on the floor? Being served porridge and water for a week? Would you like that? If nothing else you would lose some weight..
Another thing I decided to change is to start reading again. I have a very old Kindle without a touch screen and it is driving Me crazy so I want a newer one, paperwhite. I currently don't have a TV but I do enjoy watching the occasional film or documentary on Netflix and YouTube so it would be nice to have one.
Well I think it is it for now.
As always you can reach Me on servingLadyBlaze@gmail.com
Stay obedient,
~ Lady Blaze 💋
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